Tuesday, January 29, 2013

He was sure of me

The more I get to know Dave, the more I see what a beautiful and meaningful act it was for him to tell me he loved me.

We’ve been married for three years and I’ve learned a lot about his decision making process. If we're making a major purchase, he researches it for months. Big decisions are made after much prayer, thought and analysis. He's a careful person – careful to choose the right steps and careful to move at the right time. I now know Dave saying "I love you" held so much more meaning than three words could possibly convey.

Four years ago on Christmas day, he took me to a special place on his parent's land and he told me he loved me. Before he was certain I would reciprocate, he made the decision to not only love me, but to express his love. He encouraged me to receive it without feeling that I had to respond. He allowed me to take his love in without any conditions. He was sure of me and he wanted me to know it.

That moment was powerful for me. And, over time, that moment has become more than a sweet memory. It has become a strong foundation that I lean upon when life gets rough. It has become a simple but elevating equation to recalibrate my perspective:

knowing how Dave's brain operates + his decision to love me = an overwhelming gratefulness for his love

From this gratefulness, I find a deeper understanding of God's love. Just as Dave offered his love to me before I uttered a word of my love for him, God was sure of me before I ever even knew of Him.

Thankfully and unbelievably, God's sureness of me doesn’t change. He is sure of me now with all of my flaws and mistakes. He is sure of me tomorrow and all that it may bring.

1 John 4:10, 19
10 This is real love...that He loved us and sent His son as a sacrifice to take away our sins.
19We love each other because He loved us first.

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

These are the things I would say to you

I have been thinking of my family - my dad, mom(s), brothers and my sister a lot today. Thinking of what one thing I would say to them if I had them here with me...

If I knew you'd believe me
allow my words to take root.
If I knew you'd hear me
really see the truth.

Mom: You make my world a better place with your unconditional love and support.
Dad: You inspire me to be more positive and thankful for what I have.
Cathie: Your creativity reminds me of life's endless possibilities.
Jamy: You have so much to offer, I miss you and I want us to be closer.
Scott: You've become more than my brother - you're my friend, protector and comic relief.
Lisa: You're beautiful, I know I can always count on you and I love you exactly as you are.
Jarod: Your laugh is contagious and I know you will find the right path.

I love you all and I wouldn't choose any other person to take the place you hold in my life. These are the things I would say to you.